Looking back a couple of years ago I know how unhappy and self destructive I had become, I understand why and an working hard everyday to be the person I deserve and enjoy the incredible ride life can be.
There is stuff in the background that contributed, but it was down to me and I own that.
Yesterday was a great day. I completed a very positive audit, I’d taken a wander through a small Baltic coastal town that was absolutely stunning, I’d spent a couple of hours in a new town laughing with friends in a bar.
Life does not get much better than this.
Compared to last Friday it’s night and day difference, yeah I’ve got to deal with the doctors again when I get home, but it was a great day.
It’s not like an epiphany or anything, I’m doing the things I need to and feel so much better about my today and tomorrow. I really am getting back to the person I want to be and every day I find some thing else that makes realize my life is heading in the correct direction.
I’m glad that I listened to the hints to change and am embracing life once again. There are going to be stumbles, setbacks but the direction is right and I know that makes me so much better off than others.
In the last couple of weeks I’ve done so much. I’ve seen an incredibly uplifting movie, I’ve been called creative, met my editor, I’ve cried, laughed, I’ve had deep and meaningful conversations with friends, talked football with dad, brought my niece presents, tasted fresh chocolate, had people get upset with me and make up afterwards, enjoyed live music, art galleries, laughed at my doctors bedside manner, got snuggles from cats, had a someone cute laugh at my jokes and spent time enjoying the beauty of nature.
This is what living is about, and I am a very lucky man.