A little change is good for the soul.

This is a post I’ve composed in my mind 50 times today, I’m still not sure I’ve got it right, but please bear with me it’s been a brutally long day.

One of the things that has been so freeing about the last year has been the reestablishing of a couple of very important friendships, these are people I can talk without feeling like I need to justify myself, and I think we all like that.

Yes they will happily challenge me, and what I have said when it’s justified. In fact they seem to take delight in doing that, but in a way that is really asking me to look deeper and understand what I’m saying rather than putting together an argument about why I’m wrong.

As I evolve and change, and it’s change I’m very happy with, I’m understanding more about responsibilities I have, those I can put to one side and those that have to stay close. And as I learn more about the writing process I understand better and better that the people who read what I have to say have a wide variety of views and mindsets. I’ve spoken before about not grasping how interactive this medium could be, and I still have occasional “oh yeah moments” and try to go on a journey with that viewpoint.

I’m in a place in my life where I’ve put a lot of work, a lot of therapy and many, many hours into really understanding myself. And I am seeing how that was a great investment.

And so I’m finding it harder to write about that lately, in part because I’m taking opportunity to do something wonderfully cathartic away from this site. A because of that some of the more personal stuff will be put on another website, ungroundable.com” to be worked on and expanded into a long format. It’s not going to be accessible to all, you need to have registered here and ask for access, and that’s by choice as I work on my writing and attempt to find “my voice” as an editor put it.

I will continue to try things out here and love the feedback I get, all of it. I have discovered that I enjoy writing, and after getting a “could try harder” in every English class I’ve ever taken that came as something of a surprise to me.

But now, picture of the day. I spent an hour working in the garden today, feeding the lawn (turning very nice and green) and planting a couple of young Japanese Maples. They are not terribly mature trees, but will grow into something wonderful.